Seeing as some of you noticed, I just lost my membership status aswell as anything that goes with it, be it member section access or anything.
Now, I'm not leaving the community, I need to get things straight but I think I should atleast give an explanation.
Ever since I got my membership, I've been on a thin line, at one step of getting kicked if I can say that, this is due to the accumulation of mistakes, mistake on mistake happened and here goes, I got invited in a chat with five admins that agreed on kicking me.
So here's what happened, from the start of my membership until now.
I still remember the day I got accepted for the second time, the 8 April 2012 after an agitated application, to say the least.
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After that, I got membership and thought I was better than a lot of others, being overconfident and all. Needless to say and I think we all know, I had a rough start, multiple complaints about me. Multiple reports about me to admins including one for abusing the revive command when it just got added (At 4AM, we were not really playing and so I thought I was in the right to use it, where I wasn't).
I got warned multiple times, given advices to and even supported. I tried harder because I started noticing the end was near. I still kept on doing small mistakes from time to time but the complaints eventually stopped coming. I thought I was safe until I did one more thing and here is one of the PMs that I received from an Admin the day my trial ended, I'm not sure whether I should be allowed to give it but here it goes either way, if they really feel like it shouldn't be there, they can edit my post. I've nothing to hide and feel like the community should know about it either way :
I honestly thought I was safe after that, I kept minimizing my mistakes and trying to do better and I do think I succeeded a bit in it however an incident happened just yesterday 17/09/2012. It happened around 2PM while I was on Jailbreak. I played for a bit and let slip a word of my mouth, I didn't mean to offense anyone nor try to make anyone feel bad. I can't tell you what was going on but regardless of that. I said "wth niggah" to someone I knew, not thinking it would piss him off. However this person got a tad mad and votekicked me, In which I issued a ban I after got removed. It was afterall, partly my fault and I knew about it. I after that discussed with the person on steam and it reached the ears of the Admins, the person in question did screens but from what I heard didn't give them. However I had no reason to deny it as it truly happened. I then got invited to a chat conversation with five admins where the decision was clear that I was getting kicked.
I had the choice to keep this private however I decided to share it as in my opinion, I've got nothing to hide and I do think everyone should know of what happened.
I don't know what I'm going to do now, whether I'm going to improve and try again later or see what else I can do, however there's nothing else I can do right now than to apologize to every member/admin/regular that liked me and supported me no matter what I did and how many times I fucked up, some people liked me as a member, some didn't. It's up to you really, I couldn't and can't force you to like me but I do think I tried my best in this point to try to fix those shitty relations I had with some people even if it did not always work.
Note 1 : I wish to say thanks to those people that already knew about it and regardless of that did not judge me on what happened, Some people already knew about the story of me DDOSing and all and yet did not tell it to everyone and still stayed one of the people I could still trust. Thank you guys.
Note 2 : I put it there as there isn't a section fit for this and I think this is the most appropriate section for this case.
Note 3 : If those news are really shocking for some of you, you are free to remove me, I don't expect you to have sympathy for me or anything, I posted this as a type of information like post.